While I was reading some forum messages at Pinoy G4M, I thought of advertising myself in the format of a letter. I hope someone decent and serious would send me a message. I mean every word of this letter even though I typed this almost instantly. Whatever crossed my mind, I typed it. I think I typed this message in less than 3 minutes. I really hope someone notices.
I No Longer Know Where to Look for You
I'm referring to you, Serious Relationship a.k.a. Soulmate. You're one of the hardest thing to look for!
I've searched for you, sa pen pal ad. Hinanap din kita sa Yahoo! Group at Chat. Hirap mong hanapin.
Sumali ako sa mga text clan. Baka sakaling tumatambay ka dun. Sa mga bookstores, sumasaglit din ako baka book-lover ka.
Sa mga sinehan, sa mga parks. Grabe 'di ko na alam kung saan ka makikita. Sa Sogo ba? Wise Hotel?
Sa Friendster, gumawa ako ng profile para sa 'yo. You never left a message. Nung mauso Facebook, gumawa din ako ng account. Hoping that you'll Like me.
Gumawa ako ng blog for you, hoping you'll leave a comment that you're looking for me too. Sa mga Forums, iniwan ko number ko. I never got a txt from you. Sa mga gay sites, sa mga porn sites... hinanap kita. Sumilip din ako sa mga web cams pero wala ka sa mood for a show.
Sa YouTube, hinanap ko rin mga uploads mo. Sa GG Arena, nakipag-DotA ako sa 'yo. Pero hanggang "GG na sir" lang ang sinasabi mo.
Sa Ragnarok Online I met someone like you! Kaso, hanggang close friends lang talaga kami. It was the closest I could get sa 'yo.
I no longer know where to look for you. I'm approaching my 35th birthday na and I'm almost giving up. The flame of hope for that One Serious Relationship, ay unti-unti nang namamatay. Sometimes I feel na sumuko na lang at tanggapin na you don’t exist talaga sa gay world.
Swerte lang talaga si Neil Patrick Harris for finding David Burtka or si Mark ng Westlife for finding Kevin. Swerte nga lang din ata si Tiggah for finding Pooh, or si Rocky for finding Tobie. Swerte lang ata sila... at malas lang talaga ako.
Ilang beses na ba kitang hiniling kay Santa? Ilang beses din sinambit ang name mo as birthday wish. Pag nakakakuha nga ako ng wish bone sa manok, name mo pa rin sinasambit mo. Pati nga fortune cookie, pinapatos ko makita lang yung message na malapit na kitang makita.
Hayz... paasa ka talaga, Serious Relationship. Pigment of imagination ka ata. Pero thanks sa 'yo, mukhang nakagawa na naman ako ng Blog Entry. Salamat and I'm still hoping, na one day, magparamdam ka na.
Wish ko lang, 'pag nakita kita, 'di ko pa need gumamit ng Viagra
For my foreign readers:
I'm referring to you, Serious Relationship a.k.a. Soulmate. You're one of the hardest things to look for!
I've searched for you, in pen pal ad. I also searched for you in Yahoo! Group and Chat. You’re hard to look for.
I also joined text clan. Hoping you’re staying there. In bookstores, I pass by. You might be a book-lover.
In cinemas, in parks. Great, I no longer know where I’ll see you. In Sogo (hotel)? Wise Hotel?
In Friendster, I created a profile for you. You never left a message. When Facebook became a hit, I also created an account. Hoping that you'll Like me.
I created a blog for you, hoping you'll leave a comment that you're looking for me too. In Forums, I left my (cellular phone) number. I never got a text message from you. In gay sites, porn sites… I’ve searched for you. I also peek at web cams but you’re not in the mood for a “show”.
In YouTube, I looked for your upload. In GG Arena, I played DotA for you. However, “Good Game sire” is all you can utter.
In Ragnarok Online I met someone like you! But, we’re really just close friends. It was the closest I could get to you.
I no longer know where to look for you. I'm approaching my 35th birthday already and I'm almost giving up. The flame of hope for that One Serious Relationship, is slowly dying. Sometimes I feel like giving up and accept the fact that you really don’t exist in the gay world.
Neil Patrick Harris is simply plain lucky for finding David Burtka or Mark of Westlife for finding Kevin. It seems that Tiggah is also lucky for finding Pooh or Rocky for finding Tobie. They’re just plain lucky… and I’m just cursed.
How many times did I wish for you from Santa? How many times did I mention your name as birthday wish? Whenever I got a wish bone, it’s your name that I mention. Even fortune cookies, I give a crack out of it hoping that I’ll get a message that I’ll soon find you.
(Sigh)… you’re just giving me false hope, Serious Relationship. You’re probably just a pigment of my imagination. But thanks to you, I’ve created another Blog Entry. Thank you and I’m still hoping that one day, you’ll make your presence known.
I’m just hoping that when I meet you, I don’t feel the need for a Viagra